Ekansh...

A lot of time went by since my last post. if you ask me what i have been upto the answer would be...learning to balance between raising a child, running a house and doing a full time job. We were blessed with our son on 9th June last year and if I say so myself life has been quite a roller coasted since then...

Here is his first snap on my blog...Being a mother changes one in so many ways i know sounds cliched but I would say it has given a new meaning to my world...

I have dreams!

I dont know too much about the difference between dreams and wishes but here are some of my heart-felt dreams or wishes which I hope will come true in my life someday:

• To be back in shape
• Have a stylish wardrobe
• Travel both within and outside the country
• Have a stylish home well furnished and well kept
• Have a wonderful garden or if only a a balcony with a lot of greenery
• Write a book someday
• Have a regular exercise regime
• Happiness and peace within

Relationships!

I wonder about the complexity of life and the web of relationships we create. What is more important as an aspect to understand is how to handle these relationships. The very essence of a relationship is trust, transparency and truth. Any relationshipas a matter of fact whether it is between friends, siblings, parents, in-laws, husband wife or whomsoever has to be based on fearless and forthright communication. I believe once there is an element of fear from any side the relationship heads towards a downfall and it is important to correct it early on. Let us explore why the factor of fear could creep into a relationship.

• Imbalance in a relationship: One person is more committed to the relationship while the other feels that he/she can walk out.
• Financial security provider: Typically in a husband wife relationship
• Physical violence: Sometime parents and also husbands and wives
• Established authority: Often parents and child or husband and wife
• Emotional dependence: Could be similar to the first point

I could think of these as some of the reasons for the imbalance. I guess the bigger question to ask is how to handle this imbalance? How to correct it? What is the balance between being firm and demanding that it be set right or just going along with the flow. The reason I am saying the latter is that in any of the above condition the element of love is not necessarily missing. In many cases the love between the 2 individuals is entirely intact, however there are issues on which differences crop up. In our parental generation often our mothers were the home makers and our fathers continued to dominate the scene because of the second factor. Sometime generation gap plays a big role in creating some of these differences while in some cases just a difference in gender perspective creates these difference entirely. However, whatever be the reason the challenge I guess is to help a person see the other's perspective bridge the gap without scarring the relationship.

Kicked....

The day arrived, well into my 22nd week my baby decided to give his/her mother one befitting kick. We have been waiting anxiously for the kick to come and it has been good to get the first one, however how long the excitement lasts is yet to be seen as the kicking and shuffling become a norm rather than an exception :D.
I got the scan for the 21week done a couple of days back and as usual were thrilled to know that the baby is doing all well and taking all the space available in my abdomen...

Beast of burden

What the heck! I have been extremely demotivated and sad for sometime now, even though I have no reasons to do the same however somethings are beyond control. I guess a part of it is due to mood swings which have begun already.
I am sitting with these reports which I need to write and send out today but I feel completely demotivated at the least. To share a dirty secret I have just not been enjoying my work for sometime now even though i continue to do well. But this has been a persistent feeling for almost a year now and I guess I am way too lazy to do anything about it.
I guess one of the things which I plan to do is to start taking active interest even in things which don't interest me at work and do my best to keep my self focused on my work. I think that alone will give me a lot of sense of achievement at the end of the day.

Beautiful morning!

The morning cold with a hot cup of tea
A little flower on my window sill
A little bird which sings aloud
A little sunlight in my balcony
A sparkling house and a good ready meal
Life is beautiful in its own small ways

I am back!

It has been a long time since I wrote..2 months to be exact. Life has been one hell of a rid in the last 2 months. Following big events happened:

• Went home for Diwali met parents and in-laws
• Good news- I am "mommy to be" :-). Myself and hubby are thrilled and so is the rest of the family. Have travelled a lot and in early pregnancy it is a pain. Have been throwing up regularly but then it comes with the package. :-). Last month and a half have gone in coping with the basics of pregnancy.
• Am off all travel now so I am home regularly- What a bliss...
• Did my first public workshop which went of quite well... Got very good client feedback
• It was our first anniversary last week and Amit's birthday. Gifted him an 8520 :-). How time flies...Amit promised to quit smoking I pray to God he sticks to it..that's the biggest gift he can ever give me....

That's all for now :-).

Dear little baby,

This one is for you to save it for posterity. Daddy and Mummy are really happy to have you and wait anxiously for you to come to us. The thrill of seeing you during the first scan cannot be described, you became real we could see you, hear your heartbeats you are there in real for us to hold very soon hopefully. You have brought so much happiness and contentment in our lives that it is difficult to express it.

Daddy is already driving me up the wall with his anxiety and insistence of getting my blood tests done regularly, monitoring my haemoglobin, food , am I climbing stairs etc etc etc but it is all for you. We read up every week on the net how you are developing and it is very exciting for us to know about everything. Other than that we are not preparing anything else... we are waiting for you to come to us safe, sound and healthy.

Love you lots!

Mummy